Self-portrait conducted in my 7th year of treatment for schizophrenia. An obsession by the name of âodd-numbersâ torments me in daily life. ( Chap.1 âThe odd numbersâ) A death sentence was being pronounced. With the sound of the scaffold coming down, the fear of self-destruction that âthe realityâ collapses into pieces from my foot (Chap.2 âTransparent,I am.â).